(note: I stopped updating this blog in July of 2011 to focus on the Shoon Yamashita fan community I was a moderator of, and left the fandom in 2016)
I've decided to come back to the place where it all started. It's been a long hiatus: almost 7 years, I think, though it feels as if
they passed in the blink of an eye. The passing of time scares the hell
out of me. I hate calendars, clocks and planners.
I did not make a
conscious decision to step away from the fandom. It was something
gradual, as I found myself losing interest in everything when Shoon
left. I started feeling detached, as if I was standing in the middle of a
fairground where everyone except me was having fun.
Some
of my Shoon fan friends turned to other idols and fandoms, but
nobody/nothing else sparked my interest, so I ended up focusing on real
life, which got busy and complicated (as the German proverb says "Kleine
Kinder, kleine Sorgen, grosse Kinder, grosse Sorgen" - - while we're
young our problems are not that big, but they become bigger as we grow
older).
And life is still busy and complicated for me, but a few
months ago, because of a problem with my computer that forced me to back
up all my files, I ended up digging out the USB hard drives where I
kept all my fandom files (Shounen Club, Ya-Ya-yah show, Hyakushiki, all
of Shoon's Internet broadcasts...). And there started my fandom revival.